Chapter 1: A Surprising Calmness

When I received the news that the growth on my leg was cancerous, I found myself surprisingly composed, contrary to my expectations of how I would react to such a diagnosis. This experience has prompted me to delve deeper into my own self-awareness.

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As I prepare for surgery next week and await biopsy results, I find myself contemplating the effects of this situation on my life. Strangely, I’ve noticed a greater sense of tranquility. The realization of my own mortality seems to have heightened my appreciation for daily experiences and fostered a more thoughtful approach to life.

This unexpected change has led me to become less focused on material pursuits. My priorities have shifted; I am no longer preoccupied with increasing my income, expanding my client base, or accumulating followers. Even if I find out that the growth is benign, I doubt I will ever return to my previous mindset of chasing such metrics. Perhaps I’ve come to understand that these factors were never the true drivers of my achievements.

What truly fueled my success was the power of relationships. Ironically, I have always been somewhat of a loner, leaning towards introversion. Yet, through coaching, I formed meaningful connections that contributed significantly to my business's success. These relationships evolved organically, stemming from the positive transformations my clients experienced.

Chapter 2: A New Perspective on Love

I enjoy walking my dogs through the beautiful woodlands and meadows surrounding my home. Recently, during one of these walks, I had an epiphany—I aspire to live with greater love. Since then, I've been exploring what it truly means to embody this sentiment.

Perhaps I am grappling with the concept Plato described as “the beauty of goodness.” Do we need to face adversity to become better individuals? While it's not a requirement, experiencing a shock can prompt a reevaluation of one's values. In my case, however, it feels more like I gradually drifted into a calm state, from which the desire to embrace love naturally emerged.

The most immediate change I've noticed is an increased awareness of my emotions and their surroundings. I find myself reacting less impulsively and have finally begun to master the art of pausing to reflect before responding—something I have struggled with in the past. Now, it feels as if I have more time to contemplate my thoughts.

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Chapter 3: Reflecting on Change

As I continue to reflect on my journey, I recognize a significant change in my self-perception. In my fifties, I transitioned from being self-centered to developing a concern for those around me—particularly my clients and loved ones. I began to understand that others face their own struggles, just as I do, and I found fulfillment in offering support through coaching.

This realization was humbling and gave me a sense of purpose. Now, I feel compelled to assist others with a more loving approach, which brings me immense joy. Did I need this scare to catalyze my growth? Perhaps not, but often, a catalyst is essential for change, and fear can serve as a powerful motivator.

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In conclusion, I could choose to wait and see the outcome of my situation or proactively nurture this newfound sense of love as a lasting habit. I am inclined to embrace the latter, as it resonates deeply with me. Thank you for joining me on this journey.