Chapter 1: The Struggle of Self-Identity

Is life becoming overwhelming? Are your thoughts spiraling out of control? Is your heart racing? Have you left a job against your own expectations? Do you feel lost, lacking a sense of self? If so, welcome to the liminal space.

A liminal space represents a transitional phase, like a never-ending road, hallway, or staircase. Similarly, the mental liminal space can feel dark, infinite, and yet, strangely beautiful. I found myself in a seemingly perfect situation: a reliable income, health insurance, and an identity I could comfortably wear like a luxurious coat. It was a mask, and it felt good for a moment. But internally, I was in turmoil.

I was utterly confused about my direction, my identity, and my purpose. The voice of doubt grew louder, and I believed it would eventually fade. They say to "fake it until you make it," but perhaps I never truly made it. The weight of my false identity became unbearable, and I longed to strip it away and start anew.

I realized that to move forward, I must embrace who I am, but that commitment feels daunting. Choosing myself means I must invest in my own life, create a routine, and prioritize my needs. The thought is terrifying.

Choosing myself could lead to pain. I think I attempted it once, only to feel lost. At least, that’s how it seemed. Did I genuinely choose myself?

Reflecting on my past, I recognize I have often selected identities based on what others expected. I’ve played the roles of artist, singer, musician, dancer, therapist, wife, gamer, yogi, program manager, case manager, listener, gardener, and best friend—anything but my true self. I have done this to maintain harmony, fearing criticism or conflict.

I have consistently chosen to be someone else because I’ve never truly known who I am. My fear of disappointing others has stifled my authentic self. I'm exhausted from allowing my love to be weaponized and my kindness mistaken for weakness. I’ve been everything for everyone, and now I'm simply worn out.

Choosing myself might lead to backlash. It could invite gossip or the risk of losing my family. I might jeopardize everything I've built.

I've meticulously planned every step of my journey thus far, but I can no longer rely on plans. I must learn to simply be.

At this juncture, just being must be sufficient.

The first video titled "How Choosing Myself Changed My Life FOREVER (and how it can change yours too)" explores the transformative power of self-acceptance and the profound impact it can have on one's life journey.

Chapter 2: Embracing the Choice

The second video, "How to Choose Yourself," offers practical guidance on prioritizing your own needs and the steps necessary to embrace your true self without fear.