Rediscovering Love After Loss: Embracing the Journey of Twin Flames
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My Twin Flame Passed Away. What Now?
Life often unfolds in unexpected ways, reminding us that every event holds significance, even when it seems overwhelmingly harsh.
We are interconnected. Our separation from the universal consciousness has become so profound that many have lost their sense of unity and love; however, this awareness is gradually returning. Increasingly, individuals are encountering their twin flames and awakening to the possibility of profound love.
Previously, I have shared my experiences on the twin flame journey. My time with him, both together and apart, while I worked through my karmic wounds, was transformative. He mirrored my essence, and being with him was unlike anything I had ever experienced. It felt as though I was with the one person who truly understood me, sharing my passions and dreams. Our conversations flowed as if we were continuing a dialogue that had never truly ended. Gazing into his eyes was akin to exploring the depths of my own soul. He inspired me to grow and evolve, making the mysteries of the universe feel comprehensible.
Our connection altered the course of my life. From the onset, I sensed a greater purpose in our meeting, as though it had been orchestrated long before our earthly existence. This knowledge resonated deeply within me; spiritually, it was everything.
I am here to affirm that miracles do exist, and love is attainable.
We were blissfully happy. Our love was intense and boundless, marveling at the beauty of life amidst the chaos we had previously faced as humans. We felt fortunate to have found each other in this vast world, recognizing the comfort and familiarity that hinted at past lives together. It was the most extraordinary love story imaginable.
And then, just a couple of weeks ago, he passed away unexpectedly. It feels as if a lifetime has elapsed since that moment.
Do the greatest love stories not often culminate in tragedy? As he would say, "Jesus..."
He transcended this physical realm, leaving his body behind, while I remained here, grappling with the question, “Why, universe?”
Truthfully, I was incredibly angry. We had finally discovered profound happiness together, with a bright future ahead, only to be torn apart shortly thereafter. Doubts began to cloud my mind. Is true happiness even attainable?
Yet, in this tumultuous time, I recognize there is a painful lesson embedded in this experience. Despite my disillusionment, I perceive an underlying order in the universe. The universe is rooted in love. Strangely, I now understand this more clearly than ever. With time to reflect, I wish to share some insights with my readers, in hopes that they may resonate with others.
Separation (In Life and in Death) Is An Illusion
Death does not signify an end; it represents transformation, a passage from one state of being to another. This truth was always known to me, but my twin flame's passing illuminated it profoundly. Why? Because he is still present.
The signs of his spirit have been undeniable. Since his passing, I have experienced numerous dreams where he communicates with me. For instance, upon learning of his death, my car stereo inexplicably turned on repeatedly. Additionally, a door adorned with his initial appeared directly in front of my parked car. He had been with us at Disney World just the day before, and while I was unaware, there were numerous signs and messages surrounding me.
He has not vanished; he has simply shed his physical form.
While I often think about how beautiful his body was, I realize that the essence of this journey is to detach from physicality—my own or anyone else's.
He may be out of sight, but he remains very much a part of existence. The illusion of separation persists only because I am embodied, and he is not at this moment. I have faith that we will reunite in the future. I understand that I must continue moving forward.
Moreover, even when he was alive, we experienced separation due to our physical forms. In fact, I would argue that we were more separate then than now. His ego, memories, and physical presence often obstructed our union, which is the ultimate goal of the twin flame journey. Now, there is far less separating us.
I am learning to communicate.
Anger, Sadness, Grief, and Spiritual Awakenings
In the midst of my grief, upon his death, I received a profound realization: my life holds great purpose closely tied to this event, and it was destined. This realization ignited a fierce anger within me. Could the universe not have devised a way for him to remain alive while I fulfilled my purpose?
While I was crying out in despair, my new reality was forcefully taking shape. All my previous beliefs about existence crumbled before me. As I grappled with this immense loss, I was simultaneously experiencing a spiritual awakening.
It became clear that this was merely a physical loss, one in a long—perhaps infinite—sequence of lives and deaths.
Navigating the awareness of a larger reality alongside my grief has been perplexing. My daughter often asks, “Why do you miss him if he’s still here?” The answer is simple: it's a comfort to share existence with your soulmate. I miss him deeply.
I feel utterly alone and profoundly unhappy. Yet, I understand there is a greater plan at play, and my presence here signifies that there is still something I must accomplish. I share this with you, as it holds true for you as well.
Soul Contracts and Episodes of Incarnation
A friend once told me, “You both knew this was coming at a soul level.” This sparked my contemplation about the predestination of our death moments and the concept of “soul contracts.”
It feels surreal that we had just discovered each other, fallen into perfect love, and were living the dream, only for him to be gone after such a brief time. How is this even possible?
I believe we make agreements before our arrival, deciding what experiences will foster our soul's growth. Our destinies are mapped out. The timing of our deaths is non-negotiable; it seems to be the only aspect that offers clarity in the midst of chaos. I refuse to accept that the universe is cruel; hence, it must all be part of a grander scheme for spiritual evolution.
The essence of life is not mere happiness; it is about elevating our existence for the collective of souls.
This understanding still infuriates me. Clearly, I have no conscious recollection of our soul contracts, or else the mystery would be lost. Thus, I find myself frustrated with myself. Did we really sit together in the universe's screenplay office and think this was a good plan?
It feels as though we joked about our next life, saying, “Wouldn't it be amusing if we took decades to find one another, only for one of us to leave abruptly?” And then we agreed to it.
I am deeply troubled by this situation. Why must I be the one to continue living?
But we must have faith. There must be an answer to everything, even if we never uncover it.
Doubts Are Normal but Nothing Is An Accident
Despite everything, I still find myself wrestling with doubts regarding the reality of twin flames. Sometimes, I ponder whether they are merely a fabrication.
However, after all I have experienced, it becomes evident that the universe would not align in such a manner if there weren't a profound spiritual connection at play. Extraordinary events have unfolded, confirming that this individual was intrinsically linked to me, and we shared a meaningful life mission. We mirrored each other, and interacting with him felt like engaging with the very essence of my soul.
If you find yourself questioning the existence of twin flames, know that you are not alone. Twin flame relationships can be incredibly complex, and how wonderful it would be if the people we encounter in life were a bit more random! Wouldn't it be simpler to wonder if a person truly mattered, allowing us to walk away without any burden? Unfortunately, that is not the nature of life.
Everyone you meet is meant to cross your path; they shape your journey. If you are fortunate enough to encounter your twin flame, there is a significant spiritual purpose behind it that can be utterly life-altering. Meeting a twin flame is the most crucial relationship for your soul's development, and it is no mere coincidence.
There are no accidents in the universe.
I Keep Asking Why? But Some Things Are Clear
His life imparted lessons of kindness; he had no adversaries. He demonstrated that love can flow endlessly from the heart.
His passing illuminated that love is the ultimate truth. He was profoundly cherished by his friends and family, and the turnout at his funeral was a testament to that love. We all question the universe, “Why take someone so young and good from us?”
How does one so pure and youthful die so unexpectedly?
I lack the answers, yet I have reflected on myself. I am still here, as are his friends. Why? There must be a reason. Our existence on Earth holds significance. We are not here to merely occupy time, watch television, or engage in unfulfilling work.
We all possess a soul purpose, and it is crucial to utilize every moment to fulfill that purpose.
My own purpose became strikingly evident upon his departure. I am meant to dedicate my time on this planet to helping others. This realization, however, filled me with resentment. I wanted nothing more than to have him back. What does anything else matter in the face of such overwhelming sorrow?
Life, unfortunately, is not designed to be fair. It is not necessarily about being happy; it is fundamentally about soul growth. The events in your life—be they joyful or tragic—occur for a reason.
I’m One of the Lucky Ones
If time is an illusion and separation is but a façade, it becomes irrelevant whether I knew him for a day or fifty years. The temporal aspect of our relationship does not dictate the depth of our connection. Therefore, I am fortunate to have known him, even for a brief moment.
I am also fortunate to have experienced love. I am grateful to have encountered someone whose gaze reflects my very soul. I have been blessed to form a connection so profound that it shakes my reality, awakening me to a new level of consciousness. Many people go through life without ever experiencing this—yet more individuals seem to be awakening to it recently.
I am grateful to have known him at all. Such a significant event does not require extensive time to leave a lasting impact on my soul. Though my heart longs for years spent at his side, I recognize that the experiences we shared have deeply influenced my journey, and for that, I am thankful.
He was present just long enough to catalyze my next awakening. Grief and sorrow are part of my path, and I cannot escape them.
I am fortunate to have encountered my twin flame. I am blessed to have experienced true love. I am also grateful to share this message with you, affirming that miracles do exist, and love is real.
How Does Life Go On?
Beautiful things are rarely easy. I feel as though I have reached a low point in my journey, and it is time for a new beginning, which I believe is exactly where I am meant to be. Some days are incredibly challenging. I am still grieving, and it seems endless.
My life’s purpose came into sharp focus following this experience, and I know I need to write about it to assist other souls. I can see a path ahead. Some days, I may not enjoy it, but I can see it clearly.
Over the past year, I sought to discover my purpose. I yearned to understand reality. This tragic occurrence has illuminated my purpose and the nature of reality, though I find little joy in it.
It is difficult to feel excited about life in a beautiful universe when your emotions weigh heavily upon you.
Life, it seems, continues. One should not obstruct its natural flow. Its current is guiding you where you need to be.
I would like to leave you with one final thought: Tell everyone in your life that you love them today. Do not take for granted the time you have. My twin flame told me weeks before his passing, “You know we have like a million days together, right?” and I trusted that.
But we do not know when our time will come. Take nothing for granted. Just share love.
Hi, I’m Emily. I write about consciousness, philosophy, and the profound questions of existence.
I am the author of the book Twin Flames and the Love Story Within.
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